The face I love..

Today I decided it was time to whip out my camera, and take pictures of my beautiful son!..
First thing, of course my little munchkin goes for my cell phone! Talks to his mawmaw on her way to work. Julian loves talking on the phone, infact- everytime it rings or makes any noise at all.. he think's it is for him!..





After chatter box finished talking his head off the entire duration of my mom's ride to work... He ate some breakfast..and let me catch some of his cute faces on camera..



After nap- and me going in rounds with the plummer... Julian woke up & we played outside for pretty much the rest of the day! It was slightly overcast- with the lightest mist of a rain shower. Just enough to cool down the area, and make being outside in the mid of July.. perfectly pleasent!!





Julian just a few days ago started blowing kisses.. :) it's the cutest thing..he makes the MUUAHH sound!


He also started hushing me. haha.. idk where he got this from.. the only time i do the "quiet sign" is when we are in the doctor's office, or library..and we havent been in either in a few weeks! i just dont know, kids really do the darnest things!








We really did enjoy out day outdoors!.. :)

growning boy

Julian is just growning up way to fast! Julian, just in the past week has learned to open doors, count with his fingers to number three, pretend sleep, and stach away snacks. haha Oh yeah, he is def. a handful! Julian loved fourth of July, He enjoyed throwing snap&pop's on the cement and was amazed by the big firework show that we are so lucky to have been able to watch from our front steps. Have i meantioned little Julian friend is a bug hunting fool?? Doodle bugs, little fuzzy caterpillars, worms.. you name it!! So today I was cleaning up around the house, and came across something that gave me a good giggle.I use to get so mad and fuss at my little brother, he would set lose crickets, frogs, lizards in the house! And they would make all types of noise when I was tring to sleep. Once Julian was born,My mom would always tell me," Just wait Jonnilin, one day Julian will come in with frogs in is pockets, and set lose bugs in the house." Well, today.. as I cleaned up I noticed my remote was missing the backing to it. This isn't a surprise to me, it usually doesnt have the back on, Julian loves putting it off and on. when I went to put the back back on, I noticed something inside my remote..



yes.. my son has been cutting loose bugs in the house! Here, you see there is a caterpillar that was in the house who made himself at home! Infact he coocooned himself inside the my remote!! ahhh!.. this is def. when you know there is a little boy in your house! :)

living with diabetes

today makes four days straight, Julian has crashed. The doctors have changed his insulin, twice..and he is not getting alot less then he was before. I realize i have been talking, thinking, breathing, and living nothing but diabetes.. and most of you are like i was this time last month(pretty much ignorant to what diabetes is, and how it effects every day life).

Julian's little pancreas was not producing enough if any insulin, to maintain a steady glucose levels(blood sugar). After you eat,our food is broken down by the digestive system. Through this process, nutrients become smaller so that it can be absorbed into the blood stream. One of these nutrients is glucose. As glucose in the bloodstream rises, the pancreas receives a signal to release insulin, and since Julian's pancreas isn't working( or working when it wants) he is not getting any insulin.

How many times do you look at what you, or what your kids have ate? I mean really look at it? Look at the number of carbs that are in each serving? Do you ever measure each thing he/she eats? Or sit there to watch every bite that is being consumed? Do you ever sit there after your child has picked at dinner, and try to figure out the percentage of carbs they have taken in from each portion of their dinner plate? More than likely your answer to those questions are, NEVER. I know for me at least, i never looked at those things before June 5th. I never thought twice about how many oz of juice Julian drank at dinner, much less how many carbs were in each oz. HECK, i never even know how many OZ. his cups held, haha. I had never given a shot in my life, in fact was the mom who would quint, and tear up each time Julian had a healthy baby check up that required shots.
Living with diabetes has changed our life, and has flipped out world upside down and inside out. Something as small as the phrase," Good morning" has a whole new meaning now. Each day is started with a prick to Julians finger to test his blood sugar, although I can usually tell if he is high, low, or normal before checking. Depending on where he is, determines if he needs a correction(insulin). He will eat his breakfast, i will calculate, measure his meal, and encourage him to eat as much as i can get him to. Julian is allowed to eat what he wants, as long as I could the carbs to treat him. After he is finished eating, i add the carbs plus his correction and he recieves his first shot of the day. This is one of four a day. I usually check Julians blood sugar before nap,or any other time his energy level, or attitude changes. After nap, we check it again, make meal, add carbs of meal, measure meal and again encourage him to eat. one again, treat if he needs a correction plus for his carbs. This process is done again for dinner, and night time is just a simple nightmare for mommy. I am up every hour and half to check blood sugar. Julian has been anything but stable, for explain today at 10:21 i checked him before nap, he was 330, he woke up 2 1/2 hour later crashed at a low of 47. Yes, that quick... which keeps me ragged. My job, as Julian's new pancreas, is probably the closest thing to what it feels like to actually being a diabetic. The day in and down out, lows, mood swings, planning, and dealing can be painful, scary and all around irritating. However, regardless to Julian's condition, and our new lifestyle, I am a proud mother of my 21 month old, diabetic, little boy! Julian has taken this like a champ, and has not let it get the best of him. He has been talking up a storm, and getting smarter by the day. Julian now can tell me in words just about everything he wants, or feels( hungry, tired, love) Julian tonight spelled his name in the bath tub. OKay, well let me explain,... He has the foam letters, that stick to the bathroom wall. I put him name up, letter by letter... J.. U.. L.. I said each as i put it up then went back and pointed as i said them.
Julian repeated.. Ja..u..___..EYE(pointed to his eye).. A.. N. Okay so he spelled his name Minus the L. Hahaha. I know he didn't literally SPELL it, but i was so proud that he could even do what he had just did in front me! i would say that is pretty dang impressive for a 21 month old.
Life with diabetes, is certainly not easy, but is indeed doable.. and most def. worth it. Julian is a precious, thriving little man, who has the biggest heart. I have created this blog to keep all of you, family and close friend informed on our daily life, and up to date with our family and son. If you read this, and have kept up with Julian for the last 21 months that i have written here, i assume that all of you who read this, care enough about my son to take the time to learn a little more about his condition. I hope that all of you love him enough to take this as a challenge to be informed, not only for Julian but for yourself, and others you may come in contact with.

xoxo..
enjoy

Since the hospital

Since we have been home from the hospital, our life has yet to slow down, or return to what we like to call "normal". I do not believe " normal" will ever be what we once knew it to be. Julian's blood sugars have been everything but stable since the hospital, and his insulin has been readjusted three times now. It has been many sleepless nights for this mommy! Julian's blood sugar drops so quick, I am afraid to sleep to long at a time, in fear of him bottoming out while I'm sounds asleep. If I've gotten more than 21/2 hours sleep per night, that is PLENTY. In the last three days, Julian has crashed every single day. The first day he was napping, and started whining, when i went in to check him, he was pale, shaky, fussy, and very confused. Doctor adjusted his insulin. Yesterday, he was great all day, but yesterday afternoon, on my ride home from a visit.. we hit a little traffic... Julian again bottomed out durning the ride home. And again today, durning nap time. He is now only getting 1 unit of lantus at night, and only getting .5 units of Novalog for every 50g he eats.

Despite Julian's crash, he woke in the best mood. I was in a good mood myself, and knew today would be very productive! Julian mocked me all day, if i asked him to move he would say " move" if i said " go get out my feet" he said" go! Feet" lol i say yes, he say yes etc etc etc. he was a ball of energy! And evidently, so was I! i cleaned both storage closets(both are really big). moped, vacuumed, deweeded front yard(rock yard), cut the grass in the back, deweeded flowerbed), dusted, and cooked dinner. GO me! all that in between talking to Julian's doctor, and my sissy in law about Julian's diabetes.

this afternoon, Julian was grunting pretty loud.. i said, "Juju, you gotta poop?" he said " poop!!" so i brought him to the bathroom... and yes, there Julian did in deed poop! i showed him how to flush the toilet, and as the water rose up in the toilet, Julian tried to fish out his poop..LOL.. he did not want to tell it bye bye.. he wanted his poop back! :P crazy kid! he was so proud of himself for pooping on the potty.

After eating dinner, i brought Julian up for a bath, he was full of food! In the tub, Julian looked at me and said, " ma, i love you" i couldn't believe my ears! i balled, like a big baby. those words are just what this tired, zombie, worn out, stressed to the core mommy needed to hear, my baby tell me he loved me. His words so pure, so meaningful, so sincere!
i got him to repeat it while walking down the stairs.( i didn't point the camera at him, because he always wants to play with it if he knows I'm recording)

i am such a proud mommy, of this perfect little boy!

Mommy loves you too, more and more with every beat of my heart!

home sweet home!

here are some pictures of out house!

kitchen...

dinning view from kitchen

Julian's side the living room.

living room

anyone spot Julians timeout chair?..LOL

down stairs half bath

front door

upstairs bath

Julians room standing at door...

standing at dresser

standing at window

Josh & I's been room

my side our room(my dresser, side the bed, and closet)

Josh's dresser & closet.( his is a small walk in with a light insid( perfect for him to find his clothes in the morning with out flipping on the bedroom light hahahahahha!!

and yall can dream on if you want to see my office! HAHAHA- it is a disaster! stuff that needs to go in the attic is stored in there until my hubs gets home! :) & my laundry room- yeah your not seeing that either! :P

Also, ill put pictures of the back yard up, as soon as it gets cooler and i can mow the lawn and put some molch down in my flower beds! :P