Snooze....

So many people who don't live with diabetes simply doesn't understand the fear that lives with in us parents. It hunts you with every choice you make, the same choices we make countless times a day, but each day the same decision can effect your T1 different. We have to act as a organ outside the body of your child 24/7... Which means lots of night time alarms & broken sleep. At this wee hour, I'm willing to bet most parents of T1's are like myself, and on their 1st or second zombie state alarm check. Waking to do their job, because slipping/or sleeping through the alarm could mean a life loss( dead in bed syndrome ) Life saving devices on our children, designed to bring peace and to dilute the fear, seem to only take the edge off.  Tonight... I overslept my first alarm(*dunnn Dunn Dunn nnnnn *) when my eyes opened to my , {god only knows what number snooze I was on....} I felt pounding of my heart...it was so strong I could feel it in my throat. It was preventing me from the ability to hear a thing.....I shut my alarm off, & see I overslept... I Quickly fidget around until I get my fingers on dex.. Just as I do it's signaling the "low" alarm & reads LOW. Seeing low is bad.....😖 it's to low for dex to read....& from the trend graph I can see it's been that way for a while.  I gulp, to swallow the knot in my throat, & shoot  out of bed. I did all but break my neck getting to my son. First thing I look for is any sign he's alive. Saying to my self repeating  "please god,please god,...." After confirmed that Ju is alive I check his sugar to find out just how LOW he was. Being Julian is known for seizures with lows... Getting his sugars back up is always tricky especially at night. --- Tap dance on the fine line.-Simulate him enough that he'll eat as drink- but do not over stimulate because awaking him is almost guaranteed to set off a seizure. After a cup of OJ & a few pieces of left over Easter candy- Julian is out of danger zone and at 103 mg/dl. 

He's okay but the fear in me lives on. He only had fast acting carbs ... He'll need complex carbs to hold him over ...he'll probably spike some after this.... Is it worth going back to sleep or should I just wait it out....? How did I sleep through an alarm?.....a hour past the time I set it? Hitting snooze every 3 minutes in my sleep for a hour and half? That's unbelievable! Am i so dead tired from life that I'm able to do that?... It could have cost Julian his life. How do I insure it won't happen again? I never want to sleep again..... :( but I lay here and set another alarm, 1.5 hours from now.... Because that's what we do.  He's in your hands lord, protect OUR baby for the next 1.5 hours..... I'll be up again to insure he's doing fine. & please lord feel free to roll me out of bed if I ever sleep through a alarm again.... 

Bad luck comes in 4's

Bad luck streak, is hopefully over!
It all started one night 2 weeks ago when I was instructed to go to buy syrup. I was in the middle of editing, and simply sat my computer down so I could pick back up where I left off when I returned. BAD idea... Curious JAI' had his way with my computer- which landed me at geeksquad at 9pm at night. needless to say my computer was worked on for over a week, and cost dang near $400 dollars to repair.

Following this incident our ENTIRE family suffered a horrendous stomach bug for 3 days! Josh of course had it the worse, yet poor Ju had the bug twice. I had a mild case, as well as baby Jai'.

3rd incident was the very next Monday.. I had a giiiiNORMOUS A&P test that I didn't study much for over the weekend(thanks to the stomach bug)...so I was cramming like it wasn't even funny that day. As I sat with note cards in my face, I failed to notice how nap time was creeping up on us. Jai' didn't forget however, he grabbed a pillow off my bed and brought it to me on the sofa. As he tried to put it on the sofa to rest, he fell backwards off the sofa, onto the rug. The fall wasn't his worse, and was not all that bad, however it was the perfect fall to propel a loud SNAP noise, followed by lots of screaming. I knew Jai' surly broke his leg. He immediately reached for his ankle, and we rushed to the ER. His xray was negative, so they sent us home with instructions that if things did not improve in two days to be followed up on. Two days came and went, and Jai' still was not walking or putting any pressure on his leg. We saw his Peds doctor, who declared without furture investigation  that there is without a doubt something wrong. He has put in another order for a xray on next Tuesday to double check for a break. If the new xray comes back negative, we will be sent to NOLA for a MRI- where Jai will be sedated. :( I will keep everyone posted. It has been a VERY rough time with a cripple (almost) 2 year old.

annnnnnnnnnnnnnnd lastly, #4... Monday night there was a terrible storm. In the science building on campus(where I was) we had no windows, and couldn't hear the storm... when we got out it was mostly what appeared to be heat lighting. Most of my class waited it out, I however was NOT waiting it out- I had a hurting baby at home! Because of this jolt out the building, I was one of the first ones driving off campus. When I got to the intercepting road, there was no lights, as a transformer obviously blew during the storm. I made a wide left so I could be in the right hand lane, to merge right onto 90 to come home. yeah.. none of that happened. Just as I made that wide left,  I hit standing water, and my car stalled right in the middle of the intersection. Emergency first responders blew past me, as I later learned were heading to a tornado just 5 miles up the street. A friend picked me up and brought me home, and josh headed to go tend to my car. Before he could get to it, the cops had it towed. I was oblivious to my situations severity until yesterday afternoon. There is a good chance my car's motor will be no good- leaving my car in a 'totaled' state. I am beyond OVER this bad luck and beyond READY for things to begin looking up again.

with that being said- HAPPY Easter to everyone!