Since the hospital

Since we have been home from the hospital, our life has yet to slow down, or return to what we like to call "normal". I do not believe " normal" will ever be what we once knew it to be. Julian's blood sugars have been everything but stable since the hospital, and his insulin has been readjusted three times now. It has been many sleepless nights for this mommy! Julian's blood sugar drops so quick, I am afraid to sleep to long at a time, in fear of him bottoming out while I'm sounds asleep. If I've gotten more than 21/2 hours sleep per night, that is PLENTY. In the last three days, Julian has crashed every single day. The first day he was napping, and started whining, when i went in to check him, he was pale, shaky, fussy, and very confused. Doctor adjusted his insulin. Yesterday, he was great all day, but yesterday afternoon, on my ride home from a visit.. we hit a little traffic... Julian again bottomed out durning the ride home. And again today, durning nap time. He is now only getting 1 unit of lantus at night, and only getting .5 units of Novalog for every 50g he eats.

Despite Julian's crash, he woke in the best mood. I was in a good mood myself, and knew today would be very productive! Julian mocked me all day, if i asked him to move he would say " move" if i said " go get out my feet" he said" go! Feet" lol i say yes, he say yes etc etc etc. he was a ball of energy! And evidently, so was I! i cleaned both storage closets(both are really big). moped, vacuumed, deweeded front yard(rock yard), cut the grass in the back, deweeded flowerbed), dusted, and cooked dinner. GO me! all that in between talking to Julian's doctor, and my sissy in law about Julian's diabetes.

this afternoon, Julian was grunting pretty loud.. i said, "Juju, you gotta poop?" he said " poop!!" so i brought him to the bathroom... and yes, there Julian did in deed poop! i showed him how to flush the toilet, and as the water rose up in the toilet, Julian tried to fish out his poop..LOL.. he did not want to tell it bye bye.. he wanted his poop back! :P crazy kid! he was so proud of himself for pooping on the potty.

After eating dinner, i brought Julian up for a bath, he was full of food! In the tub, Julian looked at me and said, " ma, i love you" i couldn't believe my ears! i balled, like a big baby. those words are just what this tired, zombie, worn out, stressed to the core mommy needed to hear, my baby tell me he loved me. His words so pure, so meaningful, so sincere!
i got him to repeat it while walking down the stairs.( i didn't point the camera at him, because he always wants to play with it if he knows I'm recording)

i am such a proud mommy, of this perfect little boy!

Mommy loves you too, more and more with every beat of my heart!