Social distancing

National State of Emergency?
What the.. WHAT!?

I've been social MEDIA distancing for over a month now.. and now we are being told to social distance physically..? Is this real life?

I can tell you social media distancing is eye opening. It is so amazing to not be glued to your phone.. to not have to check in on facebook after every single thing you do.

It was a new mind set.. the first couple days I would think.. " oh that's post worthy", in my head I would imagine what my post would say... how it would read. how to word it to get the greater response. I can not tell you how many times I picked up my phone to reference something or post a thought... only to then realize, "OH YEAH dummy.."

As the days turned into weeks, my thinking switched. I went from thinking," I can post this..." to thinking, " I can pray about this.".

Posting about it would bring on further worry. It got feed back that didn't fix anything. It never made my concerns, or problem go away or get resolved. It usually brought upon more anxiety as others spoke of their own experiences, thoughts, and their opinions.

I was not reading the problems of the world, I was not being shaken. I found myself being able to focus on my family, on my problems, on making myself better. I was getting acquainted, settled in my home and in my soul( even as lonesome as it was).
-- I was praying about things, and not posting about them. I was reading my scripture, not a news feed. I was spending my mornings exercise and listening to focus on the family, versus scrolling over the same post over and over again. I was moving in the right direction. I was healing. I was growing.

… and then... here comes coronavirus. I have rebounded. I am so worried, I feel sick. I'm back to watching the news, and back on facebook. I reactivated because I have questions.... mostly about breastfeeding. Because facebook knows all. I assume through facebook I can learn from those in other countries what their experience was first hand, and bypass media hype. I thought this would make me feel better.. but it makes me feel worse.

Social media does not know all. GOD KNOWS ALL. HE is in control.

Social distancing is hard for everyone right now.
Social media distancing is even more difficult right now, MORE THAN EVER.
After all ...we are by nature SOCIAL PEOPLE.

BUT TRUST ME BOTH IS NECESSARY!!! Social media is making things worse!!!

I encourage everyone to take the next two weeks- to a month and FOCUS ON YOUR FAMILY. FOCUS ON YOU.

Spend time in prayer, rather than posting. Spend time reading your scripture, rather than your news feed! Go for walks, picnics, color a page in the coloring book with your kids, rather than going out and painting the town. Use this time for GROWTH!


Stay safe, wash your hands.....

WE  will get through this!

Yall.  Military life has been strumming on the beat of lonesome lately.
Goes to show that new beginnings are not always what you imagine they will be.
I was sure moving off my old street, leaving the old job, getting a more spacious house.. I figured it would all be answers to my problems.
All the solutions appeared to be in Florida. the town in Florida, didn't particularly matter( IN MY HEAD). The particular house didn't matter either, as long as it was four bedrooms and larger than 2000 sq ft.

Afterall, the year of 2019 was horrific. challenging. trailing. The ONLY perk was our blessing of Harper on 4/25/19.
…a quick recap for those who aren't familiar..
 Literally, the kids and I have spent the greater part of this year alone. Military life can be such a lonesome life to live... but more so when you have a baby in the middle of a deployment, struggle with terrible breast infections at which land you on the brink of surgery, in addition you're still managing diabetes for a kid who is in the midst of puberty and depression.
Add the sell of a home, the purchase of another, the transfer and a week in a hotel. YALL 2019 has been a year for the books- let me tell you.

Fast farward.. we are in March of 2020..so approx. 3ish months.

Here I stand, in my big Ol' new house... trying to come to terms with this change of pace. Suddenly everything is quiet... to spend another 30 days with out my husband but after they'll throw him home, in a new job, trying to get up to par with how I've been running the house is difficult. It's something civilians can not fathom. You have to walk this walk in order to truly understand the struggle.


We know noone here. Not sure how to meet people either, for peets sake. We live in such a quiet community, filled with "snow birds" with the exception of a couple young youthful families. Our neighborhood is off the beaten path, so you have to come back here with intention. There aren't many " MOPS" groups, YMCA's, or any family friendly type festivities. In this world we live in.. where social media mingling is prominent, and the little bit of face to face interaction is being drastically minimized due to social distancing in full swing( THANKS CORNAVIRUS).
 Lets face it.. being a stay at home mom, the newbie of the block, already not so extroverted-self....well, all of this is makes friendship building and mingling impossible.

 BRIGHT SIDE:
Elderly, or should I say OVER 60 being the average age means it's QUIET! It's LOW KEY! DMV is never busy, the movies doesn't have lines, there are a ton of walking trails, and all pharmacies have drive up and delivery!
Also added bonus-
Josh is home from work by 11 each day, thank god because otherwise I would for sure go insane due to lack of adult interaction. However, it is such new territory to be each others only source of conversation, and entertainment. I often wonder why God chose these orders? Why did he chose this house? This school district? What are we suppose to do here? How will we grow here..? It seems like such a waste right now, but in due time I know the purpose will be revealed to me.

I need a focus. Something aside from Mom'n to keep my busy. I've been on the fence about a couple things, just not sure where I want to dip my toes. I feel so distracted, and torn in multiple directions. I do not feel like I can go back to school, although its what my heart tells me to do.( mostly due to only getting 4ish hours of sleep nightly, and getting absolutely NO time to myself to do anything....Harper is always in tow. ALWAYS)
I am not good at doing nothing. I am not good at being stagnate, and not learning, or growing. I become more toxic the longer I sit, sorta like a fermenting grape. Maybe a fermented Jonnilin would be good? a drunkened me... maybe she would be more laid back and fun, but maybe she would be MIKE TYSON, an angry fighter, a lonely depressed, miserable self... that NOONE wants to be around.
Unfortunately I feel like I would be the latter of the two.
But I will keep pushing forward. I am starting to think the quiet is just what I need, WHAT WE NEED to grow in faith and our relationship with the lord.
It is a journey, and growth that I wont see results to like I would a semester report card, but the pay off will go so much further. It will show in the kids we are raising and how they will contribute to society in the coming years. It will show in the longevity of my marriage, and friendship with my husband. It will show in my overall mental and physical health. I just have to remain on task.

I am not sure what's my purpose to writing this. Not sure where it is even going? I just guess an outlet is what was needed as my anxiety mounts, and depression begins to set in on my soul like fog in mornings break.

I am trying. I am growing. I am moving forward.

Busy week

A rainy Friday left us doing arts and crafts half the night! Followed by some cleaning but bitting me and making me go into some crazy cleaning frenzy!!!!!

We crafted, snuggled and watched the rain! Oh and cleaned ! Lol 

Saturday morning came all to quickly as we shuffled out the door for basketball! Julian’s team won! Yay go spurs! And Jai’ is officially signed up for spring soccer! 

Saturday night was extremely rough, leaving for a even more rough start to Sunday. We missed church but I did my share of prayer! Mom and sister were in a pretty bad car accident my last night.... one of the scariest times of my life.

Once getting into the grove and plexus kicking in.... I brought Jai to get a new bike ! 😀

Spring is near! I can feel it !I love seeing the evening sun shine into my living room onto my plants! It’s ridiculous how much I adore my plants haha. I miss being home more and watching the sun move across the sky, casting shadows differently as the seasons change. It’s silly how we take such little things for granted ! 

Hump day

Happy Valentine’s Day!!! 💕

I am not quite sure how I managed to not put these pictures on the last update... but here it is. 

Juju and his team was tailing their opponent on saturdays game. At one point I caught ju and his friends, taking a knee, putting in an extra prayer and making a game plan! I jus thought it was the cutest thing!

Yesterday’s fiasco- it was a busy, and long day at work... followed by a meeting. I thankfully was able to skip out a bit early in order to still get ju to his basketball practice. It was also Jai’s last day of his reading challenge! So that meant reading while bubba was on the court! Jai’ worked extremely hard, and we read in all of our spare time! We read 20 minutes each night, which means Jai’ exceeded my goal set for him by a entire 60 minutes!!!! He read 200 minutes total! 

And I am so proud to say, his growth and familiarity with common site words, and connecting words have become fluent. I even think he may have gone up in a reading level because of how fluent he is reading on his current reading level. 

So thank you all for your generous contributions to his fundraiser! And for supporting Jai’! It means a lot!

After basketball, it was a hustle and bustle until bed! It’s been a crazy busy day. Jai’ decided he wanted to wear his “ sleep shades” to bed. 😂 okayyyy- what ever works? 

Sure enough... he sleep asleep with them on! I got a good laugh from it, and got a picture for keepsakes !

For Valentine’s, I got the boys each books! Julian has been reading, Dog Man, so he got the next book of their series! And Jai’ has a new love for the biscuit books! In addition, I decided to start a new tradition. Well- continue my paw paws tradition. 

Each and every Valentine’s Day, he would get my mim(Grandmaw) a box of Whitman’s chocolate( yellow box) and get me a small box of heart chocolate.

Well I did the same except I got sugar free, so ju could enjoy more without reservation! 🙂

Anyways, I hope you all have a great Valentine’s Day!

I was so blessed to spend lunch with Julian! I love being around him in his environment! He’s such a great kid, I just when I think I couldn’t love him more - i love him MORE! 

Dinner was followed by a great dinner with great friends! Who spoil me way more than I deserve! I’m forever thankful!

Long Long over due

My intentions are always good. I would love to be updating this daily.. like I did once upon a time. BUT life has got so busy, its hard to find 10 minutes for myself, but less 45 to blog. I come back here often, to reminisce on times. This blog tells our story for quite the number of years. I want to attempt once more to bring it back. To resume blogging, if not daily, maybe weekly? Maybe every Sunday, if nothing more.


Josh has been gone once again, in KEY WEST this time. The house is so lonesome without his spunk, and whit.

Julian has been playing basketball. He is doing stellar. I love seeing him so passionate for a sport, and off of electronics for a change. He scored his first 3 pointer during his game yesterday, and I thought he would going to shoot through the roof with excitement.



 Jai', well we have been reading in almost every spare minute. We read so muchhh! He is coming along. Much better than he was just a couple weeks ago. His school is doing a fun raiser, and so far we have raised $180 dollars to donate! This has been very motivating for Jai'! He loves the thought of helping the school to buy new books.. and his class to get a pizza and pajama party.





That's all for today, quick easy and simple update. I will try to do better from here on out. Yes I'm aware that you've head that exact line a time or two. lol No judgement needed, okay? :P
Love...

Funny remark of the day: This is random, but I want it documented so that later I can come back to read this, and laugh..

Setting it up for you ::Julian has always asked how he came out of my belly? Since he was small he would think that that I pooped him out. lol..

with that in mind..

Today I make pizza for the boys as their lunch.
I always pick pepperonis off Jai's pizza, as he don't like them( or bacon, or fudge,.. or French fries, or a lot of common things American's eat daily.)
As I give Jai his pizza with no evidence of pepperoni.. he takes one bite and exclaims," I taste pepperoni! "
Julian replies," what is wrong with you?? Where did you even come from??"
I chimed in, " Mars, HE is def. from Mars."
Julian was quick to add.." NO not Mars, he is from Uranus!"
and before I could even think of my next thought Jai states," that's pretty correct, because I did come out of mommy's butt" LOL