Mommys Bo Bo

Warning::::: graphic pictures

The day started off dreary, & rushed as josh rushed out the door to get to work. He was so anxious to see if he'd passed E-6 exam....((sadly, he just fell short! But that's ok....Next time!))

Only after drinking one cup of coffee and feeding the boys did he call to request I bring him his pt gear he'd forgot at home during the mad dash out the door. Anddddd of course the sky was about to cave in so I went ahead & packed the kids up & figured I may as well go now. No sooner I walk out the house, the sky fell & we all were drenched. 

After bringing josh his gear, we got home,poor jai was sleepy, so he went down to nap & I thought Julian and myself would watch skins toons. 

Yup that's when my tummy growled. I'm back on weight watchers so I knew I should meal prep while jai slept, to keep me from eating junk. Before I knew it I not only was meal prepping... But throwing dinner into the crockpot! Timing. Throwing dinner into the crock pot, just in time for my can opener to stop working mid can. Gr. I thought it was open enough to just bend the top back slightly so my goods could escape the can..., yet I was horribly wrong. I knew right away I did damage & called josh to come home. I was a hysterical mess... Sweating, still wet from rain, bloody, crying, nauseous from pain..mess.

The base hospital is amazing & got us in pretty quickly. My friend works above the ER & so sweetly came to see me & boys.  I got 10 stitches, a tetanus shot, & oral antibiotics. Pretty rough day... It was suppose to be as simple as waiting on fluff mail ( which I didn't get) && watching toons. :( but I must admit.... Lesson learned the hard, painful as he way.

Please excuse my hot mess self. Lol seriously looking ratchet. 

Happy Happy Mother's Day 2013

Mother's Day Weekend...went something like this...

 

Saturday- Lots & Lots of yard work( after the rain subsided that is). No need for the ground to wait & dry, as we live on a sand bar, and the ground is dry 20 minutes after a torrential down pour. We raked leaves, bagged them up, moved logs, deweeded gardens, weedeated, and mowed. When I say we, I do mean 80% Josh 10% Me. Haha. I helped with the leaves, but other than that i supplied water, and food..and kept the kids entertained.

 

Sunday, we had every intention on making the 11 oclock service.. but since mommy slept in til 945.. that sorta knocked us off schedule. Once waking, Josh had breakfast served on the back patio, let me not forget to mention that absolutely amazing weather. We had breakfast & got our day back on track after Jai's first nap. Julian got his pool blown up, and filled, and we popped up the pack & play & played some games. Julian also decided on his own, that today was the day he was going to be a big boy and kick the training wheels to the curve. His exact words were, " Let's Do this Dad!"

here are a few pictures from our wonderfully well spent day!

 

Yes. This was a bad hair day for this momma, but who cares. Look at my big boy riding with out training wheels!! he would ride for a while, then stop pedaling, leaving him to sway until he tipped over! After a few times he learned to put his feet down to prevent a nasty fall.

better late, than never... right?

This was only suppose to be posted.. like, a 3 weeks ago... I'm sorry. Life got away from me again.

Mom, Melissa, Big & boys came to spend a beautiful Saturday with us! They also took home Julian's full size bed, since we got the boys Jake & Josh's old barn door bunk beds( that are being used as twins until they are old enough for bunks).

We had such a good day, I cooked a big pot of skettie, and we played games, drank a little, but most of all, spent quality time together. It was one by far one of our best ' family' days, yet to date.

Playing games...

                                                         My mom & her girls...(minus Mindy)

                                                                     My  momma

                                   Alex sure did get the hang of the game, he started whipping some butt

We also broke out the sprinkler, and let alex & ju go at it in the water.. the day warmed up nicely.

                                                                       Hubby

                                 I have not a clue. Perhaps being a perv.... (blue balls?)

                                                          Mawmaw lovingon sleepy Jai'

Like I said, one of the best days we've spent as a family. I know that sounds insane, but we have a very large, loud family. Drama always seems to find it's way to our get togethers. So glad to say that was not the case on this beautiful, family filled Saturday!

Locks of love ...

I did it! Hair chopped off! I'm so proud of myself for being brave! I didn't shed a single tear, had not a oz of fear & even though it had to be cut shorter than I thought- I was committed and followed through!

Josh had a half day of work, & Fridays are military discount day... So it worked out ! I really love my hair cut- I feel so free & so much lighter. The salon was willing to mail my hair in for me, but I told them no that I wanted to bring it home to show my son! I wanted to teach Julian a lesson! Wanted to show him that being selfless could mean changing a life!
When I got home he was acting so funny! Almost like he was embarrassed! He ran to his room and shut the door and got under the covers of his bed. He was fully of giggles and snickers... It was cute how embarrassed he was. I tried warming him up by saying " look juju ..look what jai would look like as a girl", as I draped my locks next to Jai's face. Not a second or so later ... Julian in excitement yanked my longest lock( back was 12 inches)! The pony tail just rained hair. All I Could do was cry. Thankfully I still had two full locks- and was able to salvage some of the 12 inch lock.
But my heart was so broken. I wanted to be so angry with Julian, & at myself. I wished I had just left my hair at the salon... I was so excited to give the gift to the corporation. To a child suffering during a time of illness and hardships. It hurt to collect the hair that laid on Julian's bed, and Simply toss in the trash.(the bit that i couldnt put back together in the pony) i didn't cut my hair to look good- have a new look- or anything like that. I did it knowing it was for a good cause. Putting parts of it in my kitchen trash can was NOT a good cause..... Totally heart breaking. Without a doubt I will grow it out again and donate again. The feeling of bravery, selflessness, and having the ability to bless a complete stranger with your locks of LOVE & kindness was such a indescribable feeling.

Measuring up

At this point, I feel like breaking a measuring stick, just because it does it's job, measure. Being held at such a high standard, is making failing, or falling short so dang easy..

Modern day mommy life seems to mean spotless house, successful in school and/or careers, having dinner cooked on time daily, being fit, perky and firm, crafty, and stylish. Meaning, being a step ahead of own self, and absolutely never failing; not to meantion never falling short. I beat myself to a pulp because I strive to achieve this daily, and it has done nothing but make stress levels higher, runing myself into the ground, leaving me tap dancing on the line of, "failure".

Yesterdays cry fest, because of scheduling not going.. my way.. to todays cry fest because Julian's schooling not going my way. Kickball sign ups not in MY favor, not to meantion all the other tedious things that I try to micromangage to keep myself " successful". You know, dishes cleaned, put away, fridge bleached clean, floors spotless, clothes laundryed, & put away nicely....etc.etc.etc.etc.
^^ sounds like a spoiled brat right? My my My my, I i I ii.. not really. I am absolutely selfless, however, I am OCD & a smiggen of a control/planning freak. Despite all my plans/ self made school schedule, planning for Julian and his involvment, and my daily task reminders... I fall short... over and over. Finally, after crying until my eye makeup was down to my jaw bone, I've realized. You foolish girl, accept that You are NOT in control at all. You do not need to measure up. God is in full control, and HE has plans for you... his timing is the best timing. Your life is HIS will, and his will will be, at his own timing.

I want so badly to have my hosue look like it was freshly clipped out of a magazine, and for things to fall right into place.. but in all actualility I don't need to 'measure up'. I need to do what I do..
-mother
-housekeep
-be studious in my study
-love
-praise
-and enjoy life with my family.
As long as I be the best I can be, in the work I do.... then I am succeeding. And as far as timing is concerned, my life is at the Mercy of God himself, and his timing & plans for me. I know he has plans, and really awesome plans at that. I just need to let them play out the way they are meant to.... not the way i intend for them to.
“Whatever you do, work heartily. . . . You are serving the Lord Christ.”Colossians 3:23–24

"I know the plans I have in mind for you, declares the LORD; they are plans for peace, not disaster, to give you a future filled with hope." Jeremiah 29:11

With that said, I will not graduate before we move again.. infact I am not planning graduation, just one taking it one semester at a time.
Julian will not be attending church school again this year. I PLANNED to homeschool, then went back to thinking classes might be best.. now back to homeschooling(for now). What actually happends, planned or not.. is not my control.
(those were my biggest fall outs thus far this week)
The stress of being a modern day mommy( pinterest birthday parties, magazine cut out clean home, perfectly perfect hair,makeup,stylish outfit etc..) is no longer going to consume my life on a daily bases. I will work hard at what I do, and do it to the best of my ability, with out letting it consume my day,time and effort. Those are all things my kids deserve more than anyones impression of my home, or my image.
Striving to be the best me I can be & doing the best job I can perform with each days circumstances- will be considered success by me. And hopefully your visit will fall on a day that circumstances are at a minimal. ;) and chores were able to be tended to- but incase it's not one of those days.... At least I warned you! I am no longer striving to be a modern day mommy ... Just me. A mommy, striving to be the best I can be.

Ok. Rant over ...