make it stop!

Jai has been getting around for a while now, but yesterday he truly got the crawling technique down to a science. Today he is all over the place.. chasing balls in the hall way, following me to the kitchen, crawled up to dad when he got home!! Just unbelievable. can not believe how fast he is growing.

Tonight as i went through my camera, i fell upon somepictures of mim when she first met Jai. i broke down, had totally forgot i took those.

doesnt she look proud?

 

i wish words could tell you how much she meant to me, how much i miss her, and how much she impacted my life. I am so thankful to have these pictures.

Bumble bee

Ju has been doing much better! We went see his Pedi yesterday just for a follow up.. everything was fine, still no infection so i think its safe to say the elevated white blood cell count was from dehydration. On our way home, i pulled off the biloxi bridge, to bring Ju to a new park... yeah well i fell in love. I had been planning Jai a 'Ocean/Whale' themed birthday party( since im obsessed with Whales) and this park is perfect. It has the park area off to the side, a splash pad, a nice pavilion with really nice bathrooms, fans & tables... also right across the one way side street is front beach( private like beach in Ocean Springs). PERFECT for the theme party, and there is something for everyone! I plan to call them to see how much to rent it out... anyways.. WE stopped so Julian could play, and there were a hand full of kids there to play with. He was so excited to play at the new park.

Other than all the sickness, and doctors visits.. i've been trying to get some pinterest projects,  house projects, and holiday projects completed. I have started redoing the boy's bathroom.. & starting to make my hall tree. Also finally completed the boy's Easter Baskets. So here's the story....
I planned to go alone and get the spray paint. Figured i'd do Green for Jai & blue for Julian, but it happened to work out that the boys were with me when i went to get the supplies, So i let juju pick. I told him i was thinking green for Jai, he agreed. I told him blue for him... he said no. Hmp. i was stomped. i tried to convince him that he wanted blue..lol he wasnt buying it. he wanted 'yellow'. weird. but i assumed he was thinking LSU colors, so after confirming that he was certain, i put the darn yellow in my basket. Then walked to the crafts section. I didnt really have the design made out in my head but i knew i wanted something on them to make sure they wouldnt get confused on. so we walk down the isle and i pick out a froggy to go on Jai's & pick up a puppy for Ju.
me: this would work for yours, okay?
ju: no mom.. i want the bumble bee!
me: but the bumble bee isnt painted.. mommy will have to paint it herself....

i couldnt understand, why my kid picked yellow to begin with, and then picked a bumble bee* to me sounded girly* and then one that was plain wood... i was so surprised.

so today i was putting the basket's together and giving them another coat of spray paint.. when Julian walked out and said!
Ju: OH MOMMY! ITS YELLOW. YELLOW LIKE MY BUMBLE BEE TRANSFORMER!...

and then it hit me like a ton of bricks- DUH.. thats why he wanted YELLOW. thats why he wanted the stupid BUMBLEBEE! WHOA, that had went way over my head! Im so use to him picking ""' BLUE LIKE THOMAS"" This is serious yall, my baby boy is growing up, and Thomas is taking 2nd seat to Transformers.

Season of sickness

Season of sickness is the best way I can describe the new year! Since christmAs the boys have been sick on and off with something just about every week! Cold, rsv, croup, DKA, diaper rash, Stomach bug/DKA again. Blah!! Non stop!

So yes we were hospitalized again! Everything was going great!!! Friday we were heading out for errands when I was just bout to give Ju his levemer. He was running and ran into the fridge door, that bumped my hand and knocked the insulin onto the floor where it shattered! The smell instantly started bothering me, but my biggest concern was it wasn't time for a refill!!!! So we had no other choice but to put his pump back on for the first time since our last illness. I was nervous so I called our endos office to let them know and review the settings before hand. After talking to them we proceeded and put on his pump and went about our day! His numbers were fine all day! We got Popeyes for lunch and Ju & I shared a chicken tender box. My head was still bothering me since smelling the insulin, but I chalked it up to my contacts bothering me now. So as soon as I got home I took them out, & when check the mail. Well- that lead into a brawl between myself, AT&T & direct tv. Which made my all day headache into a full blown migraine . I put the kids down for a nap/quiet time and tried to rest but my stomach started to ache, I felt weak and dizzy & I knew what was next. Yup, I blew chunks for hours after. By now I was fully convinced it was food poisoning.( watching bar rescue makes me hate the though of the kitchens in those places) meanwhile Julian was still doing great. By 8pm I felt normal again & kids were in bed for the night & josh was just getting home from bringing recruits to New Orleans.
8am Julian woke josh & I up saying he threw up on the sofa. I really thought he was fibbing since he was acting fine & the liquid on the sofa appeared to be water
I was wrong- 20 minutes later he blew chucks again. This was about 3-4 times a hour for the remainder of the day. It was a horrid day an despite all he was drinking nothing really stayed down. Finally we made the decision to bring Ju to the ER, bc his blood sugars were starting to get crazy & he was developing ketones! By the time we got there jus bg was 450 & had large ketones. He was in ketone acidosis. Keesler had him on to much fluid and was giving him to much insulin through his IV. this could have severely harmed Julian's brain, and when children's called for report and heard about this, they decided he would not be transported via ambulance , but by helicopter. I nearly fainted. My baby, so sick and out of it, flying away without me. :( but I knew he'd get the best treatment at children's. thankfully my mother in law met Ju at the hospital( he got there in 30mins max) while I went get josh and jai then raced to Nola. We spent the night in icu again then a night on the regular floor. His doc wanted him to stay another night but after promising to keep close contact she allowed us to come on home. That's leaves us at today!

brighter days...

 

After re-reading my last blog update I noticed just how bad my slump really was. Since, I've tried to snap back out of it and get back into the rhythm. I had slacked off on babyfood making, and cloth diapering, got lazy with my line drying, and all the frugal small things I do around here to cut corners and save us money. I have focused all my extra time and energy on eating healthy, working out, and praying. The passing of my Mim has shaken my soul, broken my heart, and left me feeling so lonesome, but also having me to talk to God, sing praise, and long for a much closer relationship with my savor. I suppose praying and being closer to God, is a way of being closer to heaven, which is being closer to my mim. So my days have been brighter, when I anxious, sad, lonesome, depressed im turning up my K-Love/opening my bible/or falling to my knees. Only good can come from this right? Time will heal.. God will heal my broken heart....

Fonky Weather & sickness in the house is still lingering, leaving my joy the only thing bringing shine to my 'brighterdays'. But the boys of course have been keeping their mommy busy busy busy. Today we streamed, lysoled, bleached, and sanitized everything all over again. Jai butt is now crawling. well i saw crawling but truthfully, he does this bootay pop thing in the air, then goes into the worm..lol he does this until he reaches his destination. It's quiet funny, and his destination 9 times out of 10 is RIGHT next to Julian. Julian doesnt seem to mind, infact he gets a kick out of it ( until Jai destroys his train tracks haha)

I also had to put Jai's crib to a lower setting, since the little stinker was pulling up on it... &&
Got everything lined up to get his big boy carseat Wednesday... Cant believe my baby is already 7 months old!!!!! :( time is passing all to quickly.

Juju's sugars have been doing great, thank god. & he too is growing like a weed. He will surely need all new spring/summer clothes in a few months, and I believe the Easter bunny will be bringing him some new rain boots and crocks, because he is busting out of the ones he has.

Change.

 

Why is it that I am no good at change? My entire life is about change... hardly anything stays the same for very long around here. Change is scary, intimidating, and really can shake my roots, and so far this new year, I have faced nothing but Change.Change.CHANGE!

 

10 days into the New Year, I was called being told my Mim was in the hospital,and that she had suffered a minor heartattack. I was informed she was stable, and talking..but was being put in ICU only because there was no other rooms available at the time. With this information i didnt want to hit the foggy road, and waited til morning when I hopped in my car & hailed tail to NOLA.  Arriving before visitation, i waited anxiously to see my Mim. At noon when I was allowed back, I walked into the room, and was taken back at the state she was in. I felt like I was completely caught off guard, being she was nothing like I was told. Mim could barely talk, could not move & was skin and bones. I was heart broken, but held it together for her. I wasnt in her room for 10 minutes when the doctor came to "talk to family" & i was there alone. Thankfully my aunt showed up minutes later and the doctor explained to her and myself, that there was nothing more they could do for her, and we needed to get all family to the hospital because they were going to unhook her from everything and be moving her to the 4th floor until she passed. I lost' it', and feel that I havent regained 'it' since the day. Mim made it through the night and passed on the 13th. I never have felt such pain, and loneliness.

 

After putting Mim to rest,  the next two weeks seem foggy to me now, but i knew i got through each day thanks to my kids and their routine kept me busy.... But before i knew it, I was face to face with CHANGE again.

Julain's BG numbers spiked in the middle of the night, i didnt think to much of it, just figured it was a bad pump site and i'd change it out first thing the next morning. After doing all i knew the next day and half.. i brought him into the ER per docs request, because Julian's BG was over 400 since the initial night. After spending the day on base at the ER, we were transferred to Childrens Hospital New Orleans... where we spent the next WEEK. The doctors were dumb founded and made it clear that Julian's case was one of the hardest they have had. We spent 2 days in ICU and 4 days in the normal floor. Julian's BG's were still a roller coaster until the last night. Julian is receiving 5x's as much insulin as he was prior and noone seems to understand, or know why. He is also NOT on his pump anymore, and after a year of being spoiled by the pump... we are back to injections. We have to have two different insulin's again, and his correction factor, and insulin:carb ratio has changed as well.

Change.Change.Change.Change.

 

After being home a few days and getting back into the swing of things, we found out Julian's best friend/neighbor is moving to Peurto Rico. This is such a big change for Juju. He is heart broken, and usually goes through the day, peaking out the window in hopes of seeing Brian outside, or begging me if I can go get him to come and play. We would visit with Brian almost everyother day, if not daily...and him being gone has truly broken Julian's heart. :(

 

Two days after Brian's move, Jai turns up sick as a dog. so of course sleeps with his momma. We are back to square one of fighting sleep, and getting him to sleep in his bed again. My kids are just as bad to change as I am.. and we like our routine.

 

 

Change has been the name of the game lately, and I am trying to adjust. I do not have very many pictures lately, bc sadly I have not touched my camera. But I am hoping that will change here soon. This is a brief update just to let everyone know why we have been MIA, but praying really hard we can get back into the swing of things again this week!