Change.

 

Why is it that I am no good at change? My entire life is about change... hardly anything stays the same for very long around here. Change is scary, intimidating, and really can shake my roots, and so far this new year, I have faced nothing but Change.Change.CHANGE!

 

10 days into the New Year, I was called being told my Mim was in the hospital,and that she had suffered a minor heartattack. I was informed she was stable, and talking..but was being put in ICU only because there was no other rooms available at the time. With this information i didnt want to hit the foggy road, and waited til morning when I hopped in my car & hailed tail to NOLA.  Arriving before visitation, i waited anxiously to see my Mim. At noon when I was allowed back, I walked into the room, and was taken back at the state she was in. I felt like I was completely caught off guard, being she was nothing like I was told. Mim could barely talk, could not move & was skin and bones. I was heart broken, but held it together for her. I wasnt in her room for 10 minutes when the doctor came to "talk to family" & i was there alone. Thankfully my aunt showed up minutes later and the doctor explained to her and myself, that there was nothing more they could do for her, and we needed to get all family to the hospital because they were going to unhook her from everything and be moving her to the 4th floor until she passed. I lost' it', and feel that I havent regained 'it' since the day. Mim made it through the night and passed on the 13th. I never have felt such pain, and loneliness.

 

After putting Mim to rest,  the next two weeks seem foggy to me now, but i knew i got through each day thanks to my kids and their routine kept me busy.... But before i knew it, I was face to face with CHANGE again.

Julain's BG numbers spiked in the middle of the night, i didnt think to much of it, just figured it was a bad pump site and i'd change it out first thing the next morning. After doing all i knew the next day and half.. i brought him into the ER per docs request, because Julian's BG was over 400 since the initial night. After spending the day on base at the ER, we were transferred to Childrens Hospital New Orleans... where we spent the next WEEK. The doctors were dumb founded and made it clear that Julian's case was one of the hardest they have had. We spent 2 days in ICU and 4 days in the normal floor. Julian's BG's were still a roller coaster until the last night. Julian is receiving 5x's as much insulin as he was prior and noone seems to understand, or know why. He is also NOT on his pump anymore, and after a year of being spoiled by the pump... we are back to injections. We have to have two different insulin's again, and his correction factor, and insulin:carb ratio has changed as well.

Change.Change.Change.Change.

 

After being home a few days and getting back into the swing of things, we found out Julian's best friend/neighbor is moving to Peurto Rico. This is such a big change for Juju. He is heart broken, and usually goes through the day, peaking out the window in hopes of seeing Brian outside, or begging me if I can go get him to come and play. We would visit with Brian almost everyother day, if not daily...and him being gone has truly broken Julian's heart. :(

 

Two days after Brian's move, Jai turns up sick as a dog. so of course sleeps with his momma. We are back to square one of fighting sleep, and getting him to sleep in his bed again. My kids are just as bad to change as I am.. and we like our routine.

 

 

Change has been the name of the game lately, and I am trying to adjust. I do not have very many pictures lately, bc sadly I have not touched my camera. But I am hoping that will change here soon. This is a brief update just to let everyone know why we have been MIA, but praying really hard we can get back into the swing of things again this week!

 

 

 

dirt,dig,dug,dog on stumps.

As most of you all know from my blog updates, statues, and such- there is forever a house project going on. Well.. The back deck is finished. We have the deck painted, and sealed. New fans put up, new threshold, fixed patio screens, and now just waiting to find the right furniture.

 

So onto the next thing. We have oak trees all on our property. During Katrina, three fell that were in our yard.( the type of oaks that lean and twist..) well the stumps have been here since. Our dirt, isnt really dirt- is more of sand, and these dead stumps were just making our yard fonky. so we decided to get them up. well to get stumps grinded cost money we( well.. I) wasnt willing to spend, when the stumps weren't hurting a darn thing. Well our neighbor owns this bushhog tractor and loves fiddling around on it. well he offered to dig it up for us. So Josh got a lesson on tractors, and we got the stumps up for the cost of 5 gallons of diesel. woohoo.

 

 

 

 Ju thought it was the best thing since sliced bread! he LOVED playing in the dirt!

 Im unsure if You all have heard me talk of Brian,(our across the street neighbor). But this is Julian's Best friend. He is only a few months younger than Julian(even though hes much smaller) & they are into the same things. (Mostly Thomas & Transformers.

 

 

On this day my mom, stepdad and Brother came to visit us! we really enjoyed their short but sweet visit. This was the first time my step dad had been to our house... so it was nice sharing it with him. They also so kindly brought me deer meat. :) LeanNnn LeAnnn Leann. perfect for my new Weight Watchers Diet. ;) btw, im on day 4 and down 5.20 lbs! Anywho. thats all i have for now. More updates next year ;)

 

Happy & Safe New Years Eve everyone!

 

Merry Christmas from the Danfords!

I bet you thought i was falling off the band wagon again huh? Nope. Life got really crazy- really fast! .. but I am oh so very pleased to say, things are calming down. I was watching Christina's little girl, Gabby, for about a week. She had a snotty nose, but figured it was just allergies. Being extra percauious, I was bleaching, steaming, and lysoling everything just INCASE. Not a week later, Jai begun with snotty nose- nasty cough, low grade fever,etc. brought him to the doctor, they said it was upper respiratory. It progressively got worse. I knew it had to be something more when i was giving breathing treatments, and they werent helping. I still sat around thinking, well i already brought him in.. ill wait a little longer. Well Bad mommy decision.. next thing i knew Jai was struggling to breathe. I rushed him in to find out he had pneumonia and RSV.  His oxygen levels were low when we got there, and there was alot of discusson on admitting him. But thankfully after a while it came up enough to send us home. Jai was sick for the rest of the week, which was super difficult on mommy. He needed to sleep propped, and would only sleep on me. He would still wake up numerous times, because of the blocked nose & cough- and i was also having to wake him for his breathing treatments.

 

 We were leaving for NOLA in a few days and things werent looking to be leaning in our favor. But thankfully at the last minute everything started to look up & Jais doc gave us the thumbs up for travel! We had Christmas with the Danfords on Saturday, and Christmas with my family on Sunday. Visited with Karlie, David and Jackson.. then headed home!

Grandmaw(MIL) came to spend christmas morning with us,and met us here Tuesday after lunch.

Monday night we ate a early christmas dinner with the neighbors, then came home to take our baths, watch christmas movies & make Santa's cookies. Our santa HAD to have Chocolate milk & Sugar cookies!

 

The next morning Ju woke up after hearing his brother wake. He ran out to the tree to find his presents! He went straight to his ' dingder thing'.( railroad crossing) Then his Creaky Cranky. He also got two 12 inch awesome ninja turtles, some movies, some transformers, train tracks, an ipod, and a few other small toys.  Ju also helped open Jai's presents since all he wanted to do was eat the paper, haha. Jai mostly got floor toys, & bath toys! Ju was excited to play with his toys as well!  We had a yummy Christmas dinner & then Grandma left to head home. It was a very blessed & merry christmas!!



 

 

 

sickly kinda of week- again :(

 Sadly our Tuesday ended with a continuous cough from Jai, which evolved into a snot nose & fever sleepless night, & ran into our hump day. This is such a bummer, and I am already over this illness. Hate seeing my happy boy so sleepy, and just wanting to lay around.. poor bubba. Seeing a doc tomorrow unless things worsen between now and then. I know it's prolly just a cold, but there is so much RSV going around I want to just make sure, and have him checked out. It came about so quickly, im sure it can worsen or go away just as fast, so better safe rather than sorry..

Last night Daddy, Mommy and big bubba watched The Santa Claus on ABC. I think this is the first year Julian is putting the whole, Santa thing together. During the movie he kept turning and looking at our chimney. prolly thinking how the heck is the fat guy going to fit. haha!! He also was so giddy, & asking us question about Piper after seeing the elves on the movie.

Speaking of Piper.. she has been low key,and this momma hasnt been updating pictures of her...

she has road in a parade in Julian's room two nights in a row, HAHA.. whoops... and has hung out from our vanity lighting after writing on the mirror. And last night she was simply ' a elf on the shelf'. After Pipers trip to the North Pole last night, she came back and set on the shelf in Jai's room.
She was keeping a extra set of eyes on Jai last night, since he was a coughing mess. I need to get with the program and think of some creative ideas, or google some. Because there is 12 days left & this Momma is slackin'.

Night before last Piper left a note for Julian, with some Candy Cane seeds! Julian was so excited, he planted them right away! Throughout the day he would drop in and check on the seeds.. Last night Piper was caught watering Julian's seeds! So now the impatient Juju is  awaitin his candy canes, but still no sign of them yet!

Yesterday I brought Jai to the doctor. They were better at telling me what it 'wasn't' than what it is. RSV test came back negitive, thank god. Doctor said even if it was positive i was already treating him like they would advise me if he had it, so to continue doing what i was doing. & that it sounded like Broncilitis ( again) Last night was our worse night yet.. Jai was so restless with blocked  nasals, & wheezy breathing. Seems like i was in and out of bed every 30 minutes all night long, until finally i gave in and brought my sick baebae in my bed!! At least there, when he woke all fustrated all i had to do was let him know i was near- rather than getting up and going into his room at the end of the hall.


Last Saturday,Daddy has painted out back patio.. and I am soo impressed. It's clean, shiney &; so much more enjoyable!!! I cant wait til we can get really nice patio furniture & proceed in the project..but for now we are closed shop! Take a look at the great job my handy man did! :)

Anyways, thats al i got for now. Life has been all about my sick baebae this week. i will try to update during the weekend!

Finally Friday

 Can't believe the week is almost over, only a few more hours! Since last Saturday it's been insanely busy, and chaotic. Starting with Julian being sick, me starting to baby sit Gabby(1yr old), then Josh getting sick. Whew. I must admit, someone(perhaps my Mother in Law) once told me, after you have two, it's always like the third doesnt make a big difference. I did not believe this phrase, until now. Truly, having a 1 yr old running around.. in addition to my 4 year old, & 5 month old, does not make a big difference. The biggest difference is the noise level, which I just have to adjust to. Before, when it was Ju & myself, adding another seemed like so much more work!!! haha.. Am I saying we'll have a third? Absolutely not the point im trying to make, however, its possible way far down the line. I simply can not believe im saying that, because I was so sure i was done, & still feel so complete.. I dont know that I want another (down the road) but with that being said, no long know that I Def DONT want another. However, its nice to know I can juggle three on a full time bases! :)

 

Our Piper friend was hanging from my wine rack the other night...

 

 

 Then last night he was on our living room window seal, she was on swiper watch. If you know my son- you know he is dealthy afraid of  'swiper'. Yes, I know what your thinking, "there arent any foxes running around"(dora the explora) But here's the thing.. Julian swares and insist that squirrels are swipers. He has nightmares of them weekly, and everyday when he plays out back & im not joining him, I have to have the "wimbo" up. He screams everytime he sees a squirrel and runs under our screened in back porch. It's intense, and annoying. So i told him Piper is watching for swipers and each one she sees she uses her magic to make them nice & our friend. I know, far fetched, but im so over this insane fear. WE have SIX live oak trees on our property.. and have others the line our fence on our neighbors side. He has to get over this!!..
so here is Piper doing her magic..

Today was a short day, Gabby left around 2:30 so the boys & I headed out to run some errans once daddy got home. We went to lowes & ended up buying a few things we needed, but were putting off. They were on sale.of course, otherwise they still would be on the back burner waiting..lol. I am dreaming BIG for my laundry room. I want so badly to get new energy efficient washer and drier, it doesnt have to be anything fancy... just something that doesnt use a whole crap ton of energy. I enjoy doing my laundry outside, but dislike that i have to arrange around Mississippi weather. And sometimes i am just lazy and dont feel like going outside.. so for days like that i'd like to be able to dry inside without running the drier 3 times before clothes being dried.. Im praying we are able to afford a new set after income tax? but we shall see.  We also got Ju a fan for his room. His room is the hottest in the house- and my poor baby sweats so bad as is... would be his luck to pick the hot room to be his. & all that sweating sometimes effects his blood sugars at night. We been meaning to get him one over the last year, but always would forget, or what not. But tonight..(i assume because it's winter and its SUPPOSE to be cold) they were on sale! we got a really nice fan that is usually 80.. for 41! score!  Also got a few supplies for our outside patio. When i found our house listed, it had only been listed for a day. I came to see it alone, because Josh was in FL for school. I knew it was our house.. ( got that.. " this is it" feeling ) and one of my most favorite points is the back patio.. i kenw it had soooo much potential!!! just needed a little TLC. And over the year we have put that off as well! we redid cabinets, all lighting, took our cabinets over bar, replaced sink, painted kitchen, living room, dining room 2, laundry room, did jai's room, put up our back splash, installed a over stove microwave, re did all fixtures in all rooms except our room, did landscaping in the front, and now finally making our way to the back yard. We are starting with scrapping up the fonky paint over the concrete..and re painting it all one clean grey color. Next we are hanging new fans, replacing the screening, and screen doors, then getting nice patio furniture. Josh dreams big of building a bar out back, next summer after everything else is done.

u can prolly see how crummy the patio is.. first off the pattern is weird.. and the paint is pealing. white is a baddd choice.. shows all dirt my boys carry in! but besides that.. look how sweet my baby is!

                                                         buted his butt! again u can see the paint.blah!

                                                       Jai Butt found his toesyy!

 Here is peek of my Jai walking in his walker! Growing up toooo fast!!!!!