new life

As you all know, my life has been hectic.. very hectic... and well.. it all just got a little more crazy.

My mom and sister came up to visit last Thursday... they were staying until the 8th(following tuesday). Julian got sick a few days before they got here, which sucked, but he was acting better once they arrived.. just a little tired, like most are after being sick for a few days. I noticed he had been more cranky, and threw more fits. I thought this was all him going into the "terrible two's" stage. With unpacking, I picked up on the fact he was wetting his diaper more-- and just simply thought i needed to watch how much liquids i was giving him.. and be more observant of the oz's. ... Well... then i noticed he was asking for a cup non stop && was drinking it as fast as he got the cup. Still, nothing set in to much. On Friday Julian started with real itchy skin... He has a skin condition.. and i just thought i needed to lube him up real well. Then Saturday we went to the beach--.. he drank purple grape juice.. and later that day he threw it all up. It was the first time he drank grape juice, so i figured that mixed with the heat didnt sit well with him.Sunday we went on a dolphin watching tour... it was amazing, but Julian wasnt so happy. He was just cranky, but then again it happend to be at 11 oclock..his nap starts at 10-- i just figured he was wanting to sleep(which he did).. That day he crashed... he got to the point where he couldnt walk. This was the first time i put everything together..

-cranky

-thirsty

-bathroom/busting diapers

-tired

-throwing up

-itchy skin

....things that might not seem like they would relate.. did. I called my sister in law, thinking Julian might have diabeties.... but really not thinking to much about it. I do this alot, "self dianose" and most of the time im wrong so i expected that.

Leslie confirmed 3 out of all the symtoms and recommended me bring him to get checked. I did.... we went to my friends parents house who had a meter... Julians blood sugar was to high for the meter to even read.--... so this lead us to the ER..where they checked and again it was to high to read. Julian was admitted right away, we were told he was a diabetic. After getting back his blood work and urine.... we learned it was type 1 . It was heart wrenching to learn my son's life would never be the same again. He would live.. checking his blood sugar non stop, and giving himself shots after ever meal and before bed time. i knew hardly anything about this condition.. i felt overwhelmed and so emotional, yet thankful that my mom and sister were in town to love and support me through this very hard time. Julian was on the verge of diabetic coma when we reached the ER, with blood sugar levels just shy of 800. we spent 4 days in the hospital before getting to home home. 4 long- long lonnnggg days. Julian's blood sugar jumped around quite a bit.. and it was/is trial and error to figure out what works best for Julian. The rules are cut to a T, and the grey areas are just that- very grey. I hate the guessing part, but so far so good.

Josh's sister came into town to help me out. Her son also has this medical condition, so she is well educated in this area..and is able to give me alot of comfort as far as treatment at home with out a medical staff at my finger tips. We went to wal mart and bought Julians alot of snacks low in Carbs...and some that are called " free foods" that have NO carbs. they are all packed up, counted out, and labled telling me how many carbs are in each baggy to help make my lfie easier. Meal's will be a challenge for a while, along with eating out. However, Julian is such a angel, he has no problems letting me check his blood sugar or give his shots- he literally smiles the entire time. Only once has he thrown a fit, and it was because the nurse held him and held his head in a position that he could not watch. As long as he can see what I am doing, he has no problem. I think he will def. be a doctor, or at least be in the medical field after all this. :) He's such a trooper, I am beyond proud of him for being such a good kid, and giving me all the signs to bring him to the ER. Julian did have ketones in his urine, but I am very glad to annouce he is ketone free!..

We now have a medicine cabinet in our kitchen, full of about 2000-3000 dollars of supplies, and medicine for Julians care. Thanks to my amazing husband, all his does for our country- the military insurance covers every penny of it!

As I said before, our life is and will continue to be different... but we are still blessed with so many things. Our son is brilliant, sweet, loving, and just the best well rounded child... i've ever met. Josh and I will do everything we can to make his life easy and normal just like any other kid. We thank everyone for their prayers, and thank god for our blessings.

PS: Mom's... If your kid has been acting strange..go and question a doctor. Never in a million years would I have known what was really going on with Julian. It is very easily blamed on something else, or over looked!!

Over the weekend...

Over the weekend, we did alot of painting.... We were helping tabatha out in her kitchen. A few months back they found mold in her kitchen, and had to take out a few walls. Due to two kids and attending school- it's still not finished... So i decided to go over and invest some good qt with the best good friend, and help he work on it. We got alot accomplished. On Monday we went over to the pool/lake area inbetween my and the Spencers house. It was a good time with good friends, and made a few new friends as well! Here are some pictures I snapped of Julian....

Tuesday, I had to bring out car in to get the damage fixed from my accident in Louisiana. So we got a new car for a few days. With the bigger car i decided to go on the hunt for some outside toys for my boy. I got real lucky and found this cube, in awesome condition at a thrift store. He really likes it!!

So day before yesterday, Julian woke up before I did. I heard him playing in his room, but knew it was safe in there, so i was realllll slow about getting out of bed. By all means, he didnt mind- he sounded like he was having a grand ole time taking out all his books, blocks and trains... lol. SO when i went up to his door, he met me at it!.. he sprinted right past me and ran into our bedroom.. he crawled on the side rail of our bed, and was on his tipy tip toes, yellings " da da da da" I'm thinking he must have had a dream that Josh was home, because this is what he would do on weekends when Josh was home and not at work when he woke up. He really misses Josh, and ask about him every single day. Since we have been back in VA, Julian recognizes our belongings, and knows this is home.. and seems to look for Josh every where we go. He knows daddy is suppose to be here with us. I keep telling him, " soon".... but soon is still 73 days away.

Yesterday, I got Josh's father's day present in, along with my 16X20 picture of us that I put in our bedroom.. This morning when Julian woke, he came into our room( i was making the bed before my mom and sister get home). This was the first time Julian saw this picture hung in our bedroom. He got right under it, and was pointing, " daddy, daddy" .. and puckered up his lips( he loves to kiss pictures of Josh)... So i had to take this huge, poster size picture down, so he could love on it. It really does break my heart.. he loves his daddy so much. I will make my year just to know see the smile on his face when he is united with his father again.

here's a few videos..

Kissing a picture of daddy on the fridge

eating skettie..

Brushing his teeth!

enjoy! :)

crazy insane life w/ a kid with a amazing smile

life couldnt have been more hectic the last days, weeks, and months. But i am very glad to finally be able to say, things are slowing down for us. I am terribly sorry for no updating more but here is a quickly and some pictures from my phone.

before leaving NOLA i could not get Julian to understand the concept of "dipping'. However most times when i was tring to teach him how it works he would either refuse or plain ignore me. On one occasion, he had a hambuger and fries, he was refusing to dip his fries in the ketsup on the plate but would touch his fry to the ketsup on the burger before biting his fry. What a stinker huh? Here is a picture i caught of him when i finally did get him to dip his french fry! Bout time Julian!!!


Also while in LA, Julian got his first battery operated car. He loveddddd it. We cant wait to get it here so he can play with it.



The trip to VA was very long... seemed like a life time. My mom and Aunt drove me half way, Conyers, GA just on the East side of ATL. My best friend from VA met me there to drive the rest of the way with me. Thank god for portible dvd players and Barney!... hahaha. Nah i kid, Julian did great on the trip, i was very very surprised, and proud of him.

Here are some pictures of my little man's breath taking smile :)

Julian is talking so much more. He is starting to put sentences together, and request what he wants. He also obey's commands such as,

" go up to your room for night night"

"go get mommy your cupcup"

"put your clothes in the hamper"

"show mommy your eyes"

"show mommy your nose"

Today, first thing in the morning.. Julian noticed a banana on the counter. .. this is how it panned out..

" momma, nana" - with hand reached in the air.

- so i broke him off a peice and handed it to him.

holding it in hand....he says," more"

i told him " no, you still have some in your hand"

"nah uhhh..."- then he shoved the rest of what he had in his hand in his mouth.

then reached up again requesting," moree"

i was so surprised... he actually held a conversation with me. He is growing so fast, it makes my head spin.

we love our new home, and i promise to update with pictures soon! i also will do my best to keep up with my blog for a change. :)

enjoy

sorry they are upside down..i was using a friends phone

sorry they are upside down, i was using a friends phone. we were waiting for Meg to get out the NEX from buying her new computer, and Julian was in the back seat counting. He counts 1, 2 3, ( onhis fingers) then 5, 6. He totally skips 4! ahahaha but i think its cute that he counts. IN the video i only got him to say up to 3 i believe. hes such a ham in front of any camera.

While at the NEX Juju saw some men in uniform. He started calling out for his da da. So i caught him on video so i could show Josh how much his daddy misses him. In the video if u listen closely you hear him say.. " i miss dada" it broke my heart i almost cried. Its the first time he has ever say that!!! :(..

Today we also took a ride to garden ridge, and Julian had kicked off a shoe. when i opened the door i said" son, why do you only have on one shoe".. he replied " one shoe" Then Meg dropped her phone and we were both reaching for her phone and saying " i got it".. Julian said really loud ," I GOT ITTTT I GOT ITT" He is getting so freakin big i cant stand it!!!

Mudd bug encounter

This morning my mom & I were sitting around drinking coffee and chit chatting. Julian went off in the grass to get his fourwheeler & dump truck. He started whining, and pointing. I didnt think much of it, he usually does this if he is aggarvated with me not doing something he wants quick enough. haha. well after he came to me, grabbed my finger & insisted that I go see.. I walked over to where he was. At first I didnt see anything and assumed he wanted me to carry his 4wheeler for him. I went to grab it, and a pretty big crawfish raised his claws up at me. I jumped, being at first I thought it was a huge spider( yeah me and those dang spiders)... but after a second I begun to laugh. Robert bought crawfish today, and must have dropped one out the sack. Julian was terrified, however me and my mom laughed until we cried. Julian had never been around anything like this before and was so upset by it. He had no clue what it was, but in just a few short years, he will be tearing them up just like his momma & daddy.

Here's a few pictures...







enjoy..

xoxo